In My youth I was inclined to deep depression. I was not
much
Loved nor was I wanted . It was suggested more than once that
it would
be
nice of me to die and that I was only wasting air on Earth.
I came pretty close to successfully hanging myself when I was
around
ten and it was I now am sure only your basic Angelic
intervention
that
stopped my suicide from being more than an attempt .
Though I
had
subsequent brief periods where death seemed
preferable to my
life
from that time I was stubbornly determined to live and to
fulfill
whatever
mission
I had promised to do as best I could.
I have over time gained some experience in many ways on
the
subject of suicide and will attempt to
share a
bit
of that experience here. My experiences, opinions
and the reality I live in may
differ
greatly from yours .
We plan many aspects of our unfolding lives before we
are born
we do this from the 6th plane or so from which it is for
many,
difficult
to perceive and understand the solidity of the physical world
and
Emotions.
We have guides and advisors however they may be ignored
free
will
being the Law above I once met two hypno-therapists who
had done past
life
and between
life regressions with over 200 people they reported that many
people
in eagerness to do the work of life had planned very
active
intensive
lives and though their guides and angels wanted them to arrange
much
easier
paths they had insisted .
Also from the pre birth state one cannot always tell if
they
or
chosen Spirit companions are or will be able to get fully
into
their
bodies or have other obstacles that may alter the life's
unfolding
We do in each life have lessons to learn and tasks to perform.
being
in a way , cosmic undercover agents on a mission we chose and
agreed
to before birth . our Karma and Dharma play a role in
what
options
we have to choose from but we are not compelled to choose a
certain path.
Some of us who in encountering the obstacles we
have set
up
and as part of the "game" not remembering that it is a
game find them
far
more difficult to deal with than we had thought and feeling
them beyond
our
power to cope become consumed by despair and we might
then take our lives .
A
lost soul on the Earth plane is most likely to be a lost
soul on the
other
planes as
well but indeed there is not I think punishment for this
"Failure"
except in that one still does have the particular Karmic
issues
they
were working
on that may have contributed to the suicide and any new Karma
that
may have been created by the act.
They have also probably not completed the
mission
they set out to do and certainly they have not reaped the
rewards and benefits that
they
had set space to occur later in their lives .
Karma is really quite easy to Alleviate by
many
different
means. No one is doomed to walk exactly the same path
over and over step
by
step
until they "get" a particular lesson . Life tasks or
Missions
may
or may not have a programmed redundancy.
In any case the Great unfolding of the Sacred Dance
,Plan,
Evolution,
will not be precisely the same if you are not in the
place
doing
the things you have committed to do before you were born I
could not say how
great
an effect this has in each case but it does have an
effect
and
may cause some delay and distortions as the gap must be filled
of bypassed
somehow.
I have encountered more than one person who seemed to be a
habitual
Suicide that is they had repeatedly in many lives
for one reason or another taken their own life . One in
Particular
was a wonderful young man who at the age of 17 was in such a
severe
and
disastrous situation that Catatonia was a reasonable
option . After
hearing
about issues of Karma and mission and realizing that he may
have
chosen
some elements of the life he had had for some purpose he did
not
yet
understand
and after reflecting on the law of cause and
effect
that you have to deal with all your issues not just what you
get caught doing.
When he relized that he did have good things and great rewards
ahead in his life if he stayed in body long enough to get them
he
did
decide to remain alive ( at one point I did physically
restrain
him from throwing himself out of a window in a panic as
the
situation
came to a head) anyway he did get through the crisis and
conquer
figuratively
the enemies in his path. It took almost exactly a
year to deal with it all and
several
years after that to wrap up loose ends . but he did have as he
went
through
that process
much more happiness and pleasure than he had imagined possible
and
has gone on to have a pleasant and normal life when last I
heard . But
the point is we was not getting the benefits of his
kindness, intelligence and other wonderful qualities
because he had not
stayed
around to get them .
Another young man who had been on the
streets for several years
in his early teens as a child prostitute,contemplated
suicide
because of having AIDs decided hang in for
a while longer because after all suicide remains an option.
He found that by understanding that we are indeed Spirits who willingly
seek physical experience he was able to
establish warm relations
ships and to find great enjoyment in the life he
had he lived for
another
6 years before dying in the old fashioned scenario with
friends around
the bed
as so few do these days and stated both before and after
his death
that
life was worth it all .
I am not saying that there may not be some times
when
Suicide is the true destiny and wisest choice though
generally I think that
that
is quite rare.
Many of the ascended Masters etc. seem to concur that
people who do commit suicide are not punished for taking a
break as it were
though
in effect they may punish themselves . it is hoped that
in
planning
their next life they will not over load it with trauma and
lessons as may have been the case in the life they
left .
I am not settled on the issue of choosing death when
severely ill
, My Mother enjoyed her life for 20 years after getting ALS
one of those conditions that Dr Kevorkian is Always
"assisting"
people with. She had more pleasure and peace in her life after
she got the
condition than before and while she did indeed Suffer she chose
to
live
and did not regret that choice I think, even at the end.
I once overheard a conversation in a
restaurant at a time when our
local ballot had a assisted euthanasia bill on it where
two women discussed that if the bill passed they could
talk
"mom" into "easing their burden" so they" could get the
money when she
was
dead". When "Mom" came out of the John she looked like she had
a good bit
of life left in her.
I am troubled by the fact that many in
pain are denied pain relief
in their ending days because it may addict them or
shorten
their
time .They may have unbearable suffering and while it would be
better if
possible
that we help them leave their bodies with spiritual
assistance
"how
to die lessons" rather than physical interventions or suicide I
do not think
that
those
people in great pain who suicide are faulted
by
Source for that action. I have learned
as I facilitate healing
sessions that Angels and
guides and energies not having had solid bodies
really don't
really
understand what pain is like and we may ourselves once we
are out of our
bodies
not think it very important at all.
I have gone on rather long but wish to
conclude with the hope
that anyone who is feeling like ending there physical
presence on
Earth
reconsider and take time to look at all possibilities . I
believe that we
have
each chosen to be on earth at this time and that we are
needed here . I
personally
have found life to be a precious thing and am very glad
that I am still
alive.
Peggy Jentoft
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